I can hardly believe my last post was in October. Hey fam, I’m still alive!
This year has passed so fast, I can hardly believe it is already over. 2019 has been challenging in so many ways. Both mentally and physically, but for the first time since I can remember, I am quite content with this ending.
I’ve got about two hours to make this my last post of 2019, for any grammar errors I am deeply sorry.
I would call 2019 as the year that taught me the beauty of challenges. Before I used to think “why me” but now, I have realised that a better approach to life is “let’s do this”.
This year, I have learned to travel. I have travelled to several cities in Europe. Both alone and in the company of friends. I learned to fend for my self and finally to accept difficult truth about my past. It’s funny how once you stop running away and decide to face challenges, they don’t seem that hard anymore.
This year I have learned to see challenges as an opportunity to grow. Mentally and physically. I made this blog and somewhat stuck to it. I poured my soul out into my poetry, something I found quite helpful in dealing with past traumas.
I laid my wounds bare for the whole world to see, and some saw. They saw my pain. Some understood and some… well I like to believe they’ve tried.
2019 taught me that I am no ordinary girl. I am also nothing special. I simply am different. It is okay for me to not follow the path everyone else is on.
Taking care of your physical appearance is not tied to a certain weight, or hair length or eye colour. Did you know? Anyone can benefit from “dolling up” from time to time. Whatever that means to you.
To me, this meant having beautifully manicured nails all year long, and recently, beautifully extended eyelash extensions too. A ritual of self-love. When life got a little too hard, or a little too much, I’d go to a beauty salon and get a fresh new pair of hands to deal with the issue ahead. A journey I promise to write about next.
This year I have learned that self-love is whatever you need it to be. For me, it started with getting lost in a foreign country all by my self.
Sadly, there where many lose too in 2019. I have lost a friend I thought was dear to my heart. The thing about self-love is that once you start to value yourself you start noticing people who don’t. Distancing yourself from such people is okay sometimes. As long as you do it calmly and with respect.
The way a person treats you is a reflection of an internal battle they have with themselves. Learn to analyse whether someone’s energy is matching yours at that time.
So what do I hope to find in 2020?
I hope to continue this emotional healing path I have embarked on. I hope to have more moments of laugh with strangers in strange places on this earth. I hope to finish my second year of pharmacy school passing all the challenges it has offers. I hope to learn how to take more care of my body physically and keep using my poetry as an outlet for my misunderstood emotions.
What kind of posts do I hope to make in 2020?
I promise those travel posts are finally coming your way. I am dying to show you all the pretty cities I have seen, and considering how I am not going to travel much before summer, this is a good time to dig them up. Also, a lot more pharma-school related though I think my Instagram will be more in charge of those, we will see. There are going to be a couple of posts about food, nutrition and simple dishes anyone can make. As well as my workout of the month. I think taking care of your body is important. Also, there will be lots more poetry coming your way, perhaps I dare to share more of my past with you guys.
In any case, I want to thank those of you who embarked on my first year as a blogger. Hopefully, you stick around for season two.
I wish you a happy new year’s fam ✨